I'm Back!! =)

Its been so long I didn't come here to post rubbish..lol

Recently i'm really bz and tired..

mid terms coming after one another..

and besides rushing for assignments we have to do preparation for our Pendidkan Moral kempen..wow..tiring! That's what I was bz-ing for these past 2 weeks..

Thankfully all the mid terms and assignments have over and now left only the Moral campaign.

Our class is doing kempen Peperangan and Kemausiaan on Thursday(tmr)..

We've gone through numerous practices and rehearsals for the past weekends...

from Friday until yesterday..oh god..everyday was like so bz and exhausted with those practices..but anyway, I enjoyed a lot..

Besides drama, we did a lot of props like guns and axes, they look so real!

We also did some paintings and crafts for the posters and souvenirs or door gifts..

Every single thing "handmade" by us are our painstaking effort but we have to give away to our lecturer in the end..what a waste =(

However, spending time with my friendly classmates are so relax and joyful!

Because of this campaign, we have the opportunity to work together as a team and knowing each other better...and ofcz get closer to each other as well..

Well, there might be some conflicts especially with so many ppl in a group..

but perhaps from the conflicts we can understand each others' personality or character better and we might learn how to compromise with them in a better way..

as everyone has their own styles and perceptions or thinking in fact..

we can't expect everyone has a same view and act in the same way as we are isn't it..

but anyhow, everyone of us put a lot of effort into the work..*great job*!

and we really had a grateful moments together

Hopefully tomorrow we can perform very well for our drama..

All the best to all my classmates and myself =P

Okie other than the campaign staff..i'll be goin back to my lovely hometown this friday! Yipee!!

Wondering will my dear could spend more time for me?

hopefully he won't be working OT on weekends..

Hmm..still wonder whether I got the chance to meet Tammie, Hui Wen, Siew Ping and Eileen again? Recalling back the last time I met up with them when I went back to Penang..err except Siew Ping..she is always buzy..*dissapointed*

I thought we could have a chance to meet together..I mean TOGETHER 5 of us..

Well, surprisingly Eileen did not change at all..

she is still that sporting, talkative and funny..keeps making us laughing non stop..haha

Hui Wen looks cool with her trendy hairstyle

Tammie has no difference except she got the English accent when she talks..

especially the "so~~~~~" i could still remember..is like so many tones in a word..hahaha

anyway..she is still that stunning la..=D

and OMG! her Angel and Blossom are as sooooo cute as ever!!

No..they are getting cutter! haha..maybe I haven't seen them for years??

Blossom is fatter than b4 and thats y she looks really cute!!

Owwwhh...I wish I could have a puppy..

but stop dreaming..I couldn't afford to have one..

I just don't know how to take care pets..=/

k la this post is long enuf and I have to stop here

tomorrow morning start from 9am wil b a hectic day as this will be the last chance for us to practice and do some enhancement for our drama..

tmr afternoon will be our moment!! - the performance that we anticipating the most since we've been putting in our greatest effort and time into it..

GAMBATEH everyone!

Bitter before Sweet

Finally OD and MA tests have over!!

No doubt I did badly for the test as I didn't really put much effort on it.

OD still ok...I still can come out with some answers, but not full..

The time was so limited..!

I still left about 2 or 3 sub questions and I don't even have time to think the answers.*SHIT*

and my words are totally sucks! They are ugly like hell..-.-

what to do..1 hour have to answer 2 questions with 3 sub questions each..

FINE! Then MA...

OMG!! I totally have no idea about whats the first question asking=.=

10 marks gone!

luckily the second questions still can do..

Its quite easy actually but I think I get the wrong answers after comparing with Chie Fang..@.@

Yeah..we peek during the MA test..=P

not only us..in fact everyone is DISCUSSING!!

The Mickey Mouse lecturer sumore said the 1st question is soooo easy-.-

but how come everyone cannot do it?? stupid lar..><

Finally I just simply write 2 equations n gave up!

I don't think I can score even 1 mark for that..hahaha

Well..before today was really a night mare for me

Since Friday until this morning..I was really tension..

cz i totally can't concentrate at all..

What i've been studying is not stay in my mind!

I tried my best to understand what I study..

I keep repeat n repeat n repeat..in the end my brain still empty-.-

what happen to me? I have short-term memory lost??

so I was like half give up d..

I didn't want to force myself like that since I can't focus at all

otherwise, sooner or later I will go mad.

I didn't put max effort for this mid term actually..

maybe I don't understand what's going on in the subjects??

or maybe I'm becoming lazy (this is true..sigh)

and maybe I don't have enough motivation..

No idea la..I'm always not in the mood to study from this sem onwards..

sigh-.-.--.-

Ok..dowan talk about midterms d..its boresome!

Finally I get a chance to sit back for a while..

but I can't be too relax cz next Wednesday another test coming =(

OMG...FSA,..this is the worst subject in this sem..!!

is far worse than MA and OD..goodness!

Lets don't think about it 1st..

Here comes the sweet =)

tomorrow I'll be going home AGAIN!!! Yipee!!!

finally finally finally...

I've been waiting for it since the day I reached Kampar last tuesday..=P

Our lecture on Friday cancel

since Thursday only has one lecture which can be replaced on wednesday

so we can go back tomorrow evening by bus..yey!

But tomorrow will be a tiring day!

I have to attend 3 tutorials plus 1 lecture in a day T.T

So tomorrow my class will start at 9.30 to 11, 11 to 12.30, 12.30 to 2, take a break and 4 to 6

this is the consequence of going home early.. =s

then the bus depart from Kampar Old Town around 7pm and estimate will reach butterworth around 10 something?

then take Jetty to Penang Island took about another half an hour and finally reach home around 11 something almost 12am! 0.o

Tired!! but nvm..as long as I can reach home safely =)

Happy Moments have flown by-.-

Exciting Friday

After class around 1pm went back to Penang with Hui Mei's gang.

Thanks to Kah How for fetching and dropped me in Butterworth Jetty.

Luckily they went back too..

if not I have to spend 5 hours in the bus..

while they just took 2 hours to reach butterworth

plus half an hour in the ferry and 1 hour in the Rapid Bus..

Finally I reached home at almost 5pm -.- *tiring*!!

8pm went to rehearsal until 10pm

Mum dropped me there before her computer lesson..

glad to see Reuben, Rebecca and Deborah again

and this time we have a singer with us..she is Ann.

Firstly I thought I'll be waiting for Edmund to fetch me after his work

but he reached before the rehearsal ends..^^

so this time was his turn to wait for me..haha

went to dinner with Edmund after rehearsal

we were both so hungry

I ate Hokkien mee and he ate Curry mee...delicious!

Sweet Saturday

Woke up at almost 10

Went to Prangin Mall with Edmund for movie at 11am

We watched Karate Kids at Cathay Cinema with only RM10 for 2 persons..

Enjoyed that movie a lot..*nice*

After that we had some window shopping and lunch in Shua Shua Le

The steamboat is nice but kind of expensive..

Dear asked for the Canon 550D

But we get different prices from every shops..=S

The cheapest we could find is Rm2750..so expensive =.=

We wandered around Prangin Mall until almost 6 then we went to pick up his brother

At night before go home we rushed to Matta Fair at PISA before it is closed =)

We did a crazy thing..at first we were kind of regreted but finally we are not! haha

Mum bought durian for me and finally I get to eat Durian!! yummy!

Splendid Sunday

Get up at 8 something

Reached The Cat Studio at 10am

After everyone has reached, we headed to the Penang Turf Club for strings quartet performance

This was the first time I entered into the Turf Club.

Its huge inside..

I could see the racecourse through the window..

Actually I used to see it when I was in secondary as my school is just opposite the turf club..

But this time was even nearer and clearer

As we reached there quite early, after the sound checking we have nothing else to do except waiting for 12.30 to reach..

and we have to stay there until 3pm...its quite boring actually..

but we get to watch Fashion Show during our breaks

The models are so tall and gorgeous...*envy*

Oh and most of the ladies came with hat

I could see different kinds of hats

got big one got small one, some with a net 1, some even with flowers and feathers around it..

wow..I guess they aren't inexpensive..

Anyway, they are beautiful..

I wonder was there a theme for this luncheon

Or maybe they wanted to win for the best dressed competition @.@

I didn't know what event was that...but it was very formal and grand

Evening I went to Matta Fair again with Edmund

This time we could really take our time to look around

and finally we brought home heaps of travel brochures and flyers

After that went to dinner at Mahsuki (not sure of the spelling)

Is a Japanese restaurant but I still prefer Sushi King or Sakae..(cheaper..lol)

At night meet Guat Chin and Ah Chio besides permata

We talked about the Taiwan trip..hopefully they could join us..

I'm worrying that our time couldn't match =(

Really looking forward for this trip although it will be on next year which is still very far away from now

anyway..hope they can go together with us la..

but we have to plan first...hmmm...excited..haha

Idle Monday

Stay at home for the whole day

Thought I will study atleast 1 chapter..

but in the end I just sleep..sleep and sleeeep only-.-

too tired d..lazy to study la..no mood to study also.. =P

at night went dinner with mum..

we ordered at 8pm before we depart from home

but in the end we still waited the food for more than 1 hour..-.-

and it was so hot over there...damn pekcek..

after dinner mum drop me to Edmund's place

we went to visit Kuan Yan..he met with an accident

So pity him he kena until quite serious..

By looking at his wounds, I could feel the pain he is suffering..its sad..

Hope he could get well soon..god bless him

Sigh..accidents could just happen anytime anywhere without our expectations

really have to be more careful on the road..especially to those motorcyclist..

Fuyoh..i know is a very very long post..

but its almost done..haha

I always wish to have longer time in Penang..(yeah I'm greedy)

duh..now back to kampar already!

next week midterm already!

Don't know when only can go back Penang again..haihzz-.-

I'll miss Penang...

I'll miss you dear...

I'll miss every single moment I've spent there..

Tomorrow faster come..!!

I'm happy!

WHY??

because tomorrow I'm going HOME!!

I really want to go home

I miss Penang so much

I miss my home

I miss my room

I miss my bed

I miss my mum

I miss my dad

I miss Penang's food..

and ofcourse I miss my boy the most..hahaha!

Dear..can't wait to see you tomorrow!

I'm really looking forward to it!

I wonder will you be happy and excited to see me as well??

I don't know..but I hope yes..

Oh ya..my mum told me our kitchen has been renovated

I think now is almost complete

and the net book from Streamyx has arrived! wohoo!

but I don't think i will use it..=S

Well...really excited to go back Penang

Hopefully tomorrow will have a safe journey back to Penang!

God bless me!

Thank you!

Hate myself!

I'm really tired of studies!

I'm really useless and helpless!

How come I couldn't be smarter abit?

How come during every lecture I can't get what the lecturer said even thou I have paid FULL attention?

How come I always forgotten what I've just studied a few moments ago??

How come I'm always feeling sleepy from the moment I start to do my revision?

How come I couldn't study for more than at least one hour a day??

How come my brain is always stuck when there comes the calculation part??

How come every time I wanted to study but I always procrastinate endlessly..??

How come I've become so lazy since this sem??

Aiyo really hate myself..!!

I know it is really stupid and useless to blame myself here but not doing anything

but I just couldn't help myself..!!??!!

How can I expect others to help me??!!

God also won't help me d..

JANE ah JANE!! PLS STOP UR HOLIDAY MOOD AND START STUDY NOW OK!

this is the final year and I cant joking anymore!

Mid terms coming soon and my brain is totally blank!

I'm really freak out d la..!!

Haiyo..what happened to me?!

Who can save me out?! Haizz haizz haizz..

K la..I really need to stop this and get my butt off to start my study!

If not I'm gonna die in this semester! =.=

Ipoh

Woke up at 7.45 early in the morning

Supposed to meet Flora they all at 8am

but last night slept at almost 5am so I couldn't wake up earlier

After bath and tidy up quickly rush to meet them at the dim sum restaurant

I was late n by the time I reach everyone was there already ^^"

We ate some dim sum as our breakfast.

but it doesn't really taste nice as before..

and surprisingly it is quite expensive..@.@

After finish our breakfast we head to Ipoh

Me, Shee Ying, Siew Choo, Alice and Flora in a car

Shi Mun, Guo Cheng and his sister a car

We went to Jusco and watch a movie

Knight and Day...its really nice!!!

I love it!! I still love Tom Cruise although he is abit old now

He is cool in the movie..!

And Cameron Diaz is funny..I like her since after I watch Charlie's Angel many years ago..

Everyone enjoyed the movie =)

After movie we shopped around and I have bought some stuff ^^

After shopping its most 4pm and everyone was so hungry as we skipped our lunch

Then we went to somewhere (I don't know where) which is just nearby Jusco to have our meals

Unfortunately the Korean BBQ buffet operates at 5.30pm

Since everyone wants to eat buffet, so we just wait until 5.30

We spots some boutique shops along the street..

I wonder why when girls see boutique shops they will get excited..(especially me..lol)

So we went in the shops one by one while waiting for dinner

Finally I bought a pants and a bag..with only RM50...cheap rite ;-P

After visit most of the shops we head back to that restaurant and finally we get to fill up our empty stomach

I like this restaurant because we can steamboat and BBQ with many choices of Korean food

The environment is nice as well..service is good and everything is so fine

Besides we could get 10% discount =D

We started to eat from 5.30 until 8 sumthing

Everyone was so full..

But I realized that they dun really eat much and I feel that I eat more than them..curious!

I thought guy can eat more..?? but in fact he drinks a lot..hahaha

thats y their stomach is full with water but not food..lol

Although we didn't really eat much...but we did enjoy our dinner

Around 8.30 we went back to Kampar with a bloated stomach, tiring but happy mood...

I've spent almost RM150 today..

But it is worth more than what I've spent for because I get a lot of fun and happiness with my friends

Indeed I had a great day with my friends today =)

失眠

最近一直失眠

很难入睡。。好不容易睡了又很容易醒

也许是太多的烦恼缠着我

才会有这种症状吧

最近的确好多事情烦哦

功课。。学业。。友情。。甚至爱情

我发觉当我越是想要达到一样东西，我就越会觉得烦

好像功课方面，我尝试很认真去做，但我还是不会做

学业呢，我尝试很努力去读，可是最后成绩还达不到我的理想

在友情方面，我尝试去维护它们，最后却被我搞砸了

至于爱情呢。。我拥有一个很疼我的男朋友

我也觉得自己很幸福。。

可是很可笑吧。。这还有什么好烦的？

虽然说爱情是甜蜜的

不过有时爱太深也是一种苦

我发现我越来越爱他了。。可以说是爱到无法自拔

所以我对任何大小事情都变得很敏感，很在意

原因是因为我害怕失去。。

这样不仅让他觉得很压力，有时我也觉得很痛苦

我多么希望我可以控制或压抑自己

人家说感情要经历很多的风风雨雨，要过很多难关才会坚固持久

我很努力的尝试去成为他的理想情人

当然我必须经历很多难关才能达到目的

可是我真的不懂我能不能到达这个目标的一天

我很怕我会失败。。我很怕我们任何一个人会半途放弃

我不是对他没有信心，而是对自己真的没有自信

不过无论如何，我还是会继续改进自己

因为我希望我会是能够永远带给他幸福快乐的理想情人

Who can help me?

Another week started...

Now is already the 4th week of this semester

Wow..I really can't believe the time passes so fast!

The past sem break is just like few days ago..

Sigh..its already one month over...

but I'm still in the holiday mood

Wake up JANE!!!

I seriously have to start with my studies!

Today's lecture was so blur..

I totally don't understand what was the Mickey Mouse lecturer talking

I hate this feeling

The worst thing is this chapter isn't in the text book

how am I going to study?

Where should I refer??

This semester is going to be very tough!

OD lecturer Shanti is good, but the TGV tutor really dissapointing!

MA both lecturer and tutor is ok...but I don't know what the whole thing is going on

FSA is the worst! Our lecturer and tutor is the same.

but we can't depend on her at all

I'm suspecting whether she has enough qualified to be a lecturer..@.@

Well..I shouldn't complain so much..

In fact, we really cannot depend much on the lecturers or tutors since we are already a degree holder

But I really don't know how to study without a clear guidance..

Fine...let me stop crapping about my problems..

This evening I joined my classmates to Grand Kampar Hotel for steamboat.

We were actually celebrating for Xing Hui cause tomorrow is her birthday

*Happy birthday to Xing Hui*

After the steamboat we went to her house to give her a surprise.

I really enjoy the moments with them

and thanks to Flora fetch me home after the celebration

Back to my homework T.T

I've been reading the FSA tutorial questions for many times.

and I seriously have no idea how to do the questions!

How how how how how????

Is not I don't want to do..is I really don't know how to do

hopefully tomorrow the tutor won't call up my name

If not I need to do a summary for the whole chapter-.-

Sigh...this makes me want to start complain the lecturer again

ok fine..if I were to complain I think few pages also cannot finish.

Talking about complain..yeah..I seriously want to complain about the Internet line

What happen to the line??

Is it my computer wireless problem? or the modem problem?? or the Streamyx problem??

The line is always unstable!

It keeps on disconnecting..

Why I have to wait so long for a page to load???

I'm really pek cek with it d!!

Thats why I seldom blogging now..

cause it took me so long to get in to my blog...

GRR!! what to do?? wait lo...unless I don't online.

Well..really hope all my problems can be solved!

If atleast one of them can be solved I'm happy enough d

God please help me..

I'm not a greedy person..

either you help me in my studies..(makes me smarter..lol)

or you make the Internet line go smooth and fast.

Haih..how good if God can listen to me..

or hopefully he can read this blog =P

Okla..is time for me to stop crapping here

gotta sleep early cz tomorrow have morning class =(

Once again..Happy Birthday to Xing Hui

*I love her eyes...they are really pretty*

Boring Sunday

My first Sunday in Kampar for this semester

Its so BORING!

I was in my room for the whole day

except went to the toilet and the fridge to get some drinks

I was too lazy to go out for my meals

So I just ate biscuits for my lunch and dinner

I wanted to do some assignment

but today is the only rest day for me

I wanted to start some revision

but I've totally not in the mood

I wanted to watch some movies

but the Internet line is so unstable

In the end

I just did some housework

and facing my Lappy for the whole day

waiting for the line to be stable

waiting for the page to be loaded

waiting for the MSN to sign in

waiting for the time to pass

...

In fact

I have done nothing today

好人VS坏人

相信所有人都想当好人

因为好人才会有人喜欢

可是为什么又会有坏人

又有多少人喜欢当坏人呢

曾经坏人当过好人

好人对别人都很好

好人很乐意帮助大家

好人处处为别人着想

好人愿意相信别人

好人不想让别人受伤难过反而自己扛起那些悲伤痛苦

好人所做的事情目的只是能够让大家开心

好人希望自己对别人好别人也会对自己好

可是最后，好人却得到什么回报呢

后来好人才发现原来对别人好别人不一定会对你好

帮助大家别人不一定会感激你

信任别人却被背叛

为别人着想却让人觉得烦

当好人实在是太累了

不仅没人感激，反而却受到伤害

久而久之，好人再也无法忍受那些痛苦

于是再也不当好人了

当好人受到无数的伤害与痛苦

渐渐地就变成坏人

坏人其实并不坏，只是比较自私

坏人不会刻意去害人或伤人

他只是想保护自己不再被受到伤害

坏人不介意别人怎么讨厌他或怎么看他

坏人宁愿别人讨厌他，也不要自己受伤

虽然如此，坏人还是有点良心的

如果人不犯他，他也不会犯人

坏人只是以别人怎么对待他去对待人家而已

坏人是很空虚，很寂寞，很可怜的

因为他所做的事情并不是内心真正想要的

坏人也希望别人能理解他的所做所为

都只是因为害怕，想要保护自己才会那么坏

世界上有哪个人喜欢被讨厌的

坏人只是不得已才会扮演这个角色

所以希望大家都可以体谅坏人的苦衷

试着去了解坏人

也许你会发现坏人其实并不是你想象的那么坏而已